The Good, The Bad and The Ugly - All In One Week

Wow is the only word to describe this week. It certainly has been a busy week for both Ian and I. We had training all this week for our Resident Assistants jobs. The good about this training was I was able to get a way from work so that was nice!!! Training was intense and very time consuming. We learned alot this week about our roles as leaders and representatives of USU. There definitely is a lot on our plate. We did learn alot though of what we can do to improve to make a difference in the lives of many. The one scary part of training that was difficult to handle was learning about the reality of what to do if there was an active shooter on campus. This was a big eye opener for me because it brought a feeling of what would I do if I found out that there was a shooter on campus and Ian was at school. This experience also helped me realize that I need to know what to do if I am in the middle of this situation as well. The other scary part of training was talking about responding to emergencies with our residents as their leader. Basically if there was an emergency or a tragedy Ian and I of course are in charge and trust me when I say that this is a heavy feeling to have on your shoulders. I had many thoughts and feelings of inadequate feelings during these sessions. None the less we did enjoy our time with other friends who are RA's with us. We have definitely been stretched this week. I also have been struggling today with many feelings. Last night we had a difficult situation with one of our residents and the situation has been playing back in my mind. I of course can not mention the situation in detail, but all day I have been just looking for answers for myself. I have been trying to look at the situation from a gospel perspective and I tell you having Christ like attributes are difficult sometimes in these situations. It has been difficult for me to let go of anger and judgement which in turn it has made it difficult for me to hold on to love and charity. If any of you are managers or RA's over apartments you know what I am talking about. There are times when you just want to hit people with a "stupid" stick. I can already tell that the experiences that we are going to face as RA's are going to be almost like hell's fire. The good part about it though is I hope to learn from it and grow from it.